I have to say that this is the first time that I am on the road that I truly do not want to go.  I have spent the last 5 weeks home enjoying life, seeing my family, my friends, and being "home".  I was on my way to the airport dead tired after a very very nice night, ;)  I am just looking forward to getting back and being able to see my friends again and to once again be in the arms of that one special person.

I think that life is a series of tests to see where you belong in the afterlife.  Your choices here however small they might be are the key to the path you take in the afterlife.  I am making choices, some small, some large that will affect my eternal future.  I choose to live my life in the form that I think will make me the happiest and even though there will be people surprised at my choices, or saddened by these choices, I need to make the choices that I need to make.

All is well as far as I am concerned... and I am happy

Have you ever tried to figure someone out and you think that you know their attitude, and then they act a certain way you did not expect? 

I guess recently I have noticed that I thought I knew someone and the way that they were going to act, and then they surprisingly act a totally different way.  Do I really know this person?  or, do I think I know them but really don't?

I am actually intrigued by this.  Then I started to think, I know my close friends and my family and I usually can tell what they are thinking by looking at their face, or know how they are going to react to a certain comment or move, then there is this person.  No matter what I say or do, I really do not know what they are going to say or do.... it is a really weird situation.  I am just relaxing and taking it one day at a time, and maybe I will finally realize what message they are trying to convey!!!!!

God Bless Everyone!

Once you give your heart away to someone is it possible to ever get it back?

It tranfers through that "one" kiss.

You know which kiss I am talking about.  The one that makes you feel like you could cry for hours and there would not be one tear of sadness.  The kind of kiss that makes you feel weak like the weakness felt right before you fall asleep.  The kind of kiss that makes you wish there was nothing else to do in the world but be with the person you love.

This is where I feel a heart is transfered.  You can try to get it back, but it takes an exact same kiss to retrieve it.  This concept might be a little out there, but I whole-heartedly believe in it.  The heart of an individual is as complex as the soul, it has many many chambers filled with all kinds of emotions, but that one piece, the love piece can only be filled by one.  You can try, and you can think that cramming lots of love into it makes it possible, but all you are doing is filling the other chambers of the heart with excess love.  Our hearts are reserved for one and one only.  If you are confused on who that person is, or convinced that you know who it belongs to, close your eyes and reach deep deep within your soul and you will find out who the person that the love chamber belongs to.  It is that person you love, OWN IT.

Just a thought for today.....

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This is the first blog I have edited.... reason being... negativity... why focus on the negative when you have a chance to live life each and every day?

I think that when things become tough and are difficult to deal with , you must look to the people that really matter in your life.

Thank You to all of you who have helped me in my situation.  There is a lot of love for you all!


God Bless Everyone!

Love To All!

Joey

The word love is defined as: "unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another."  When using that definition I woud have to say that I love many people.  Saying the term, " I Love You", takes on a different meaning for some people.  If I can love someone unselfishly and only care about their well-being can I want someone else to love them also?  OF COURSE!  That is the beauty of love.  You can love many people and never be in the wrong.  What I am trying to say is that love takes on so many different meaning for so many different people.  Some think that you can only use the word love if there is a physical relationship and some believe that love can be used in a description of a best friend of the same sex.  I think love has become confused with sex in our society.  Some people immediately correlate loving a non-relative person with being intimate with them.  I could certainly love someone and not have sex or kiss them.  I think that is something I never thought I could do.  I genuinely love people that I am  not physically attracted to or do not physically turn me on.  Then again, I love people who turn me on and I am physically attracted to.  I guess they are the same love, but with different sentiments. 

I just want every one of my friends to realize that I wish nothing but health and happiness to them all.  Life is too short to hate, and too short not to take the chances that make it worth living!

God Bless You All!

Keep On Lovin'

Joey

It is very hard to tell a person's intentions sometimes.  Sometimes people act a certain way because they need something or because they want something.  I guess I am just amazed sometimes at how much a person's attitude changes when things are good for them and when things are bad for them.  If I was in a situation where I had no choice, I still would not do it, but unless that was the case, I would think of myself as a bad person if I changed my behavior because I needed something.  I guess I was just thinking about this because I was just reading an article in Men's Health about women from Russia (Mail-Order) brides that fake "love" to be with a man until it is time for them to move on because they have everything.  Then they act as if the man is a gross disgusting person, a kind of fucked up conept after all!

Hope all is well with you all, and maybe one day my blog won't be such a rambling..... I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE THAT SOMEONE WOULD DO THAT! 

Marriage is a sacrament not a fucking night out!

WOW!

Okay enough of this!

Do you ever wonder why life throws us curveballs?  Why does life like to challenge us?  Well, I have a theory.

I think that without curveballs in life we would never be able to move forward.  I think that it requires a strong individual to realize that the struggles of life are actually stepping stones to the future.  Without the difficulties, we would never be aware of the negative feelings that make is yearn for the positive ones.  Does that make any sense?  Well, I am looking forward to some positive moments, because right now I am on strike two after a few curveballs.  Maybe one day I can hit one out of the park.

Is confusion a state of mind or a state of being?  Is it possibly to think we are confused and not actually be, or is it more possible to constantly be confused and convince ourselves that we are not?  I am going through a situation where I know what I want and I know what I need, but I am not willing to let myself have it.  I think it is because I am genuinely confused about the results and I am convincing myself not to do it.

Is this weird?

I guess it is hard to want something so very bad and the only thing you can do is think about it.

I am going to try to take it day by day, because that is the only thing worth doing.

In life how do you know what the right decision is?  Are there people that actually know the right thing to do before they do it?  I always think of myself as a conscious thinker and someone who weighs decisions heavily on cause and effect, but for the first time in my life, I am perplexed.  I have two roads in front of me and I am not sure which road to take.  One road could lead to the most beautiful beach in the world or it could lead to the driest desert, the other road could lead to a peaceful lake, or an isolated forest.  I just do not know which way to go.  Each have positive and negative possibilities, but which negative is stronger or which positive is stronger?

Am I ranting?  I hope not, I just want my friends to read my thoughts because right now, I could use some friends by my side helping me in making this upcoming decision!

Life certainly goes on, and I am happy for that!

Hope everyone is doing well!